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You avoid me and I want to listen…

Posted in As of late..., Self Portraits with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on March 24, 2011 by faythrose

I’ve had a tough couple weeks and I’m not sure if it will be better. I had a job, but had to lose it. My patience is wearing thin. I try so hard and it seems to never be enough. I’m exhausted! I tried not to care anymore and it somewhat helps. Then sometimes it just comes flooding back…

I feel angry, hurt, insane, and emotions that I cannot describe. When can I have a vacation?

I need a shoulder to cry on and I don’t trust anyone to do that with. The one person I do trust avoids me…

My love,

I am confused and all I ask is for you to tell me what’s wrong. I will feel better knowing I was there. You say I never listen when I do. You just don’t understand me like I don’t understand you. I am still learning who I really am. I found fears I never knew I had. I remember things I thought was forgotten. Did we lose each other for good? You say it’s not me it’s you. I don’t believe you.  We both changed and I want you back. You blame things that is not meant to be blamed. You take your anger out on those you love.

I’m a fighter and I will stay strong. No matter how far I keep falling I still get back up. I won’t let stupid shit stop what we had. I know you are not weak. You can stay strong too. I am here to help you through the tough times. Let me listen to you…

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Christmas 2010

Posted in As of late..., Photography on December 12, 2010 by faythrose

Winter…my favorite time of year.

I never really had a chance to take winter photos. This winter I hope to change that.

I put the tree up and here is what it looks like. I love white trees.

My Backyard

Here’s my backyard. You can see that some leaves weren’t prepared for winter. For a larger version check out my Deviantart here: http://faythofdespair.deviantart.com/art/My-Backyard-189380029

Here’s my favorite of them all. The ice on the kitchen window…

Winter Crystals

Ever since I’ve seen how ice forms on the Discovery Channel as a kid I just couldn’t help, but love the beautiful patterns it creates. One day I will have a real good macro lens so I can take better pics up close of ice and snow. I may be at it for hours 😛

Emotion…

Posted in As of late..., Photography, Self Portraits on October 4, 2010 by faythrose

Life seems to have its ups and downs. Mine has always been crazy…

I was taking photos for a series I decided to do for myself called Emotion.

Emotionless

Must Be Empty

My past has been harsh. I’ve endured so much and I surprise myself at how I have not given up.

Gone

At this point of my life I feel it is the best…

My daughter loves taking pictures. She decided to jump in with my photo session and take over the remote. She’s not bad for a beginner 😛

Family

It’s not a perfect portrait, but I love it 🙂 Next time we’ll have to get her dad in it 😛 He was busy doing other tasks.

Life gets better through time so don’t give up…

Vampyre…

Posted in As of late..., Photography, Self Portraits on August 19, 2010 by faythrose

I have always been fascinated with the fictional vampires. There are so many different vampires out there now I can’t tell you which is my favorite. I adore more of the despair they go through as they are living immortality, the delicate beauty they possess, even the power they possess through character. How can a being live so long and not go crazy?

We’ve all seen the different vampires through Bram Stoker, Anne Rice, and now Stephenie Meyer. My most favorite was Bram Stoker’s Dracula. I read his book and seen most of the Dracula movies based on his books. I was inspired by his creativity.

Delicate

My most favorite character was Lucy Westenra. I was sad that she wasn’t seen much in the movie, but once you read the book she’s quite vivacious and playful.

Enticing

My favorite scene in the 1992 version of Bram Stoker’s Dracula was of course when Lucy became a vampire and Van Helsing waited in her tomb to stake her. The way she carried the child, the gloomy singing, the fashion and makeup; Francis Ford Coppola was too creative. We can’t forget the great acting of Sadie Frost. If it wasn’t for her that character wouldn’t be captivating.

Deception

My arms are hungry for you…