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My Heart Is Free…

Posted in Self Portraits with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on October 19, 2011 by faythrose

My Heart Is Free

Photo/edit: me

Sadly I get my inspiration at night so my table lamp is my light source. I used a Nikon D7000 which I had to return. I was beginning to like it, but I guess my Canon will do 😛 I have been using Tumblr so I forgot about this blog. I did make another one on Blogger so feel free to follow me there too.

You avoid me and I want to listen…

Posted in As of late..., Self Portraits with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on March 24, 2011 by faythrose

I’ve had a tough couple weeks and I’m not sure if it will be better. I had a job, but had to lose it. My patience is wearing thin. I try so hard and it seems to never be enough. I’m exhausted! I tried not to care anymore and it somewhat helps. Then sometimes it just comes flooding back…

I feel angry, hurt, insane, and emotions that I cannot describe. When can I have a vacation?

I need a shoulder to cry on and I don’t trust anyone to do that with. The one person I do trust avoids me…

My love,

I am confused and all I ask is for you to tell me what’s wrong. I will feel better knowing I was there. You say I never listen when I do. You just don’t understand me like I don’t understand you. I am still learning who I really am. I found fears I never knew I had. I remember things I thought was forgotten. Did we lose each other for good? You say it’s not me it’s you. I don’t believe you.  We both changed and I want you back. You blame things that is not meant to be blamed. You take your anger out on those you love.

I’m a fighter and I will stay strong. No matter how far I keep falling I still get back up. I won’t let stupid shit stop what we had. I know you are not weak. You can stay strong too. I am here to help you through the tough times. Let me listen to you…